Why caesarean?

At 22weeks, did an ultrasound and the baby head is a bit big. I was asked to take the sugar drink to check my sugar level. At 37weeks, i undergo ECV where the doctor at hukm push the baby head into head-down position. Coz at that time the baby is still head-up position or breech, i was given an option to either do ECV, caesarean or baby come out bum 1st. Baby come out bum 1st was never an option for the doc, we the doctor advice too risky. Honestly, I already make up my mind to just accept caesarean as an option. But the doctor insisted to do ECV coz of my age, the position of the baby and etc. She so insisted that she even left me speechless and just agreed to do ECV. The ECV was successful. 

On the 1/7/2020 blood come out. My sister advised to wait for a contraction every 5minutes. Around 4am i experience stomach pain, the kind of pain that I just can’t handle and cant really sleep. So I decided to go the the hospital, the doc in charge at that time, checked and said it only open for 2cm but if i really want to admitted she’ll helped. I was so blur and speechless. She was doing her thing down there. Its was painful and very much scary experience and honestly coz it was my 1st time i was a bit shy. But ya, So i was admitted. At 9am, a doctor came to my bed and said he wanted to check the opening. Yes, he. Indian male doc. Not being racist,I mean it is my 1st time. I never been with other men than my husband. Sooo awkward. As he checked, suddenly a burst of water came out. Still very awkward. Felt like i just peed myself and make a big mess. Everyone suddenly be like rushing. I was asked to get up and sat on a wheelchair. So they push me to the labour room, i was fine to be honest. Super scare. Cant stop texting my mother, my mother in law and my husband to get they prayers for me. The hurt part was when they checking for the opening other than that, the waiting game. I did take epidural. Before labour, everyone was like liyana, please ask for epidural. So i asked. Right after the epidural around 11am i was felt my heartbeat so fast and told the doc. The doc check, and turn out i was a having a fever and also at that time the opening is still at 4cm. They gave me PCM and a wet towel to put in my cloth and at my head to lower the heat i guess. At 2pm, still fever. No pcm given. Just change of wet towel. Opening still at 4cm. At 4pm changes shifts of nurses and doctors. The nurse that came, she keep saying to me, u been here too long, and u having a fever asked for a caesarean. I kept quiet. At 6pm, still fever and opening still at 4cm, the doctor in charge called another for another opinion i guess. They decided to proceed with caesarean. Undergoes my caesarean at 7pm. My body was shaking because i felt so cold. They tried to give me a heater, didn’t help at all. I cannot feel my hand and my lower body ofcoz la kn. I just felt someone pushing my tummy. 

And there she is 3.54kg and healthy. My baby Nur Aleesa Qaisara.

The whole process I didn’t shed a tears until hearing my husband adzan for her, just make me cry.